Since I've deleted my facebook, I found myself becoming active in twitter, if you can call 4 tweets as active that is. I seldom go on line these days, and having twitter seems easier, just like talking to myself using 140 characters. If I have nothing to say, I'll use twitter, but if I've a mountain to complain about, then it's blogspot for me.
I had a really strange dream last night. I just need to type it down because it might be a sign that my time to rest in peace is getting nearer..The dream started with me lying down on a dirt, and then I'm not sure if someone was pouring dirt on my face, because I felt like I'm being buried little by little, and when I almost couldn't breathe, someone or something was pricking my back, then all the dirt on my face would disappear,and I was able to breathe again. Then the whole process would start again. After that another strange dream would occur. I've no conception of the time gap between that dream and this dream. I was in a place surrounded by blood. The walls, the floors, everywhere I looked there was blood and I was screaming my head off, then all of a sudden my eyes opened and I was breathing heavily. I wonder what this means? Do I start writing a will???lol
...After much thought, I decided to make a list of all the animes I've watched so far. I've registered at myanimelist.com, yeah you might say another site to update, but I think this would be really helpful for me in the future, in exchange I opted to deactivate my facebook account, because that account is tiring me..So many people wanting to be friends, that's good and dandy, but it's really exhausting to keep up with everyone especially when I'm gone from the web for such a long time. What's even more annoying is when I'm just starting to log in at facebook and confirming people, the chat box kept on popping that I got fed up with it...My friends would be surprised because I didn't announce anything, but that's the way I am, I delete and make accounts depending upon my menstruation..lol.
..To the curious and the stalkers, here's my animelist account;
Took a forced leave from the computer due to my old ailment. Migraine and gastritis managed to make me bed ridden for days. And what made it worst was moving from side to side made my world twirl. I have to lay there in bed like I'm about to be transferred to my coffin. No computer,television and books for me, just your friendly creepy crawlies that managed to locomote on the ceiling. What a wasted week that was! Now I have to do a lot of multi-tasking; answer emails,reply to comments on youtube,blog here and mostly catch up on my animes.I'm so freaking behind.Any moment,I think I might have a relapse, and the doctor said I have to take it easy and give my eyes a rest. Anyway, I've been drinking lots of milk these days.I think I consumed more milk than your average toddlers. Doctors advised by the way. I noticed a change though. My poop became light yellow and my fart smells like a baby's fart.lol. Alright, I'm done here!
...Finished making this video before I got sick, but I was unable to upload it here. I made a color version of this which I uploaded in youtube, decided to use the sepia tone version here on my blog.
kanashii hodo tooku ni kanjiru kimi no kokoro sagashi hajimeteru itsumo soba ni ite mamorarete ita kara nee hitori ja kowain da
nagareru jikan nante minna onaji na no ni ima nemutteru naite iru egao de ite hoshii
afuredasu omoi o daite ai ni yuku kara sorasanaide chanto mite kimi o shinjiteru sou dare mo shiranai futari dake no omoi de wa tsuyokute utsukushii toki no aoi umi sono ude sono mune ni watashi wa ikite iru
ashita de aeru hito soshite wakareru hito kurikaesarete aruite iru douka kimi o totte eien made tsunagu tatta hitotsu no ai ni shite yo
afuredasu omoi o daite ai ni yuku kara ima sugu kono ai o tsutae ni yuku kara mou nani mo iranai kimi no kokoro igai wa futari de irareru nara kowaku nanka nai kondo wa soba ni ite kimi o mamoru kara
July 15 will be a rotten day for Youtube users, with or without our consent, our layout will be replaced with the new youtube beta that they said aims to improve overall management of messages, contacts and videos.This is a lot of BS! I've made a new account to try the new beta, and frankly speaking it's horrendous and not layout friendly.They put the option of loading a background layout, but with that freaking wrap around color in the theme, you can't see the layout picture.Translucent feature was also gone, same with managing the position for the sectional box of your friends, subscriber,comments,etc.
..I don't know who thought of this change, and why the need to change the layout of all accounts.It should be optional. This is not democratic. And to think that Youtube launched a contest asking its users; What is Democracy? There's your democracy, forcing a new feature that's unpopular to the masses, and not giving its users a choice at all. It's a fait accompli.
..I've thinking of joining the fray, and post my thoughts on the youtube blog about the sucky beta they're offering, but I know I'll just be wasting my time. My effort would be more productive if I start downloading my fanvids in youtube and just transfer it to another site that offers the same service, even better at that.
...While opening my account in youtube, this appeared on my screen
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...Shit!!!Out of all the other accounts that subbed Cross Game's every episode and other existing uploaded fanvids on the ending song that was sang by Ayaka, Why does the stupid Shogakukan Production Co. Ltd, complained my fanvid in youtube? I don't really see the logic in this..They deleted a vid that only contains images from first episode of Cross Game, but they let those videos remained containting the whole freaking show! I only make fanvids to promote the show, but those people from stupid Shogakukan sees it as infringing their copyright..crap!The show isn't good anyway...I'll just go watch Major..I only decided to make a fanvid of Cross Game because of the ending theme Koikogarete Mita Yume by Ayaka.
I haven't been watching much series lately, because frankly there's nothing much to be excited about in any shows being put out there. Then I came across a news that they're going to do a live action of Futatso No Spica. I downloaded the first episode and so far I've nothing to complain about with the casting or the pace of the story. I have no idea about the leading actress Nanami Sakuraba, so I did the most convenient thing, I googled her, and by doing so, I found many of her videos uploaded by dirty old men in youtube...kyaa!and I couldn't believe that at such a young age, she agreed to do provocative video shoot, that made me even squirmed in my seat. I feel like a pedophile watching her videos. and to think I find her really innocent looking. There goes my admiration for her, wrecked by a two piece bathing suit and a come hither look. That girl needs to be spanked, and I don't mean it in a sexual context...cough.
..There are few people in this earth who have stamped their personality and left a lasting impression in the minds and hearts of earthlings..Michael Jackson was one of them...He maybe ridiculed for his outlandish lifestyle, criticized even on his sexual preferences, but no one can deny that his music, his style, his dance have influences countless artists and earned admiration from pop music lovers all over the world..
...May you rest in peace, and to borrow a few lines in one of my favorite song of yours;
"Though you're gone star far away Each time I see a rainbow I'll remember you"
..Speaking of another legend, Congratulations to Valentino Rossi, for achieving a remarkable 100th grand prix win...He's only the 2nd person to accomplish this kind of feat..
...The ending has many humorous scenes,with semi-naked images here and there,which was like it's first episode...But what really caught my imagination was Takizawa on top of the merry go round while this background song was playing..
REVEAL THE WORLD
I saw you in Heaven I heard of your glory You saved our world from the fallen angels I saw Messiah standing, Standing before me with no words Nothing but "Hope". When we lost dread, a Demon was laughing But now you are showing us wonder Giving your love With awe, down on my knees again I've got to know you're the one, The only one reveals the world
The King has come! To lighten up our feet The King has come! To save us from the dark Who could ever doubt? We have faith
Let me walk with you when I'm lost in the wild I know you always lead me to another Eden Let me bless your name, O Lord, O Lord! Your words will never fade away Since we believe you're the light on earth Reveals the world
...kyaa!I want a copy of the song..I've been like googling for hours,but to no avail...Hope someone out there will read this, and be kind enough to upload the song for me.."keeping fingers crossed"..
I felt short change though, there were so many things that wasn't fully explained, and many questions left unaswered..I hope the two movies that will come out end of the year and next year will shed light to some of my questions like "Who is Mr Outside"? Who among the 12 is the supporter??and in the last scene, Takizawa ordered Juiz to make him a King, is that going to happen???
..Watching this kind of animes makes one cogitate about society, politics and religion...I must admit that it did enter my mind, that maybe the goverment itself sometimes conspire to make certain events happen, in order shake up people in their comfort zone, or maybe used tragic incident to divert the people's growing grievances in goverment's incapability...
I'll end this entry with a quote from Constantine Karamanlis..How profoundly true.
“We are given to the cult of personality; when things go badly we look to some messiah to save us. If by chance we think we have found one, it will not be long before we destroy him.”
..Finally, I was able to get a copy of the song Shojo S by Scandal..That song has been haunting my shower moments for weeks now..but I only have the tv version from Bleach back then...Seeing the girls official video reminded me of the girls in K-On,four girls and wearing school uniform which is so passe..I wish they'll wear a yukata or a maid costume..lol.....Too bad that this week will be K-on's last eipsode..and I want to see them do a Budokan episode...I thought that would be the girls' main goal, and not just performing often in school theater.. ...And speaking of girls, I saw the game between Sharapova and Dulko in the 3rd round of Wimbledon. I never uttered the words double fault as much as I did on that moment..I was all nerves rooting for Sharapova, and I want Dulko to double fault in the crucial service game...but no such luck..Dulko won the game in 3 sets..I feel for Sharapova...It was a great come back from 1 set down and 3-0 on the second set, and she managed to win the second set, but ran out of steam at the end of the third set...What happened to you Maria???How do we solve your game???By the way, I know this entry has disconnecting subject...but I'm too lazy to separate each one, so deal with it or now!!!
sakki made to iitteru koto chigau janai chotto dake sugao miseta keredo zutto IRA IRA IRA IRA shite wa atashi wo mono mitai ni atsukatte
sakki made to iitteru koto chigau janai dareka no sei ni shite wa nigekae kureshiteru hibi ATE ni naranaiwa. I'm sorry toriaezu sayonara
anata ga inai toiai atteiieru wagamama (zutto kienai you ni kesanai you ni) aijou, yuujou, shiritai koto wa nandemo. (aimai sugite wakaranai yo.) itsuka kokoro no oku no doa wo kataku anata wo matteiru
sakki kara jibun no koto bakkari janai chotto gurai kizutsuite mitara
sou yatte yasashii kotoba de goma kasanaide shinjirarenaiwa kakko tsukenaide yo
nannen tatte mo itsu ni natte mo yamenaide
atashi ga inai to dame dame tte iikisu na kimi (motto hoshigatte yo tsuyogaranaide) ai no zanzou, yume miru shoujo ESUKEEPU (tsukamattari, nigekittari) itsuka kokoro no kagi wo kowasu you na...
anata ga inai toriai atteieru wagamam
[zutto kienai you ni kesanai you ni] aijou, yuujou, shiritai koto wa nandemo. [aimai sugite wakaranai yo.] itsuka kokoro no oku wo daitekureru anata wo matteiru hokani wa nani mo iranai ia ia ya ashita mo shinjiteitai ia ia ia ia ia ia ya
Translation of Shojo S by Scandal
Isn't what you're saying now different from before? I'm showing just a little bit of my true self. it's been bothering me so much, the way you treated me like a thing. Isn't what you're saying now different from before?
it's someone's fault that i'm running away and hiding every day i can't rely on anything i'm sorry, but goodbye for now.
it'd be selfish of me to say i didn't want you to go. (i don't want you to go away, i won't get rid of you) love or friendship, i just want to know. (it's so vague, i just don't get it) the door to my heart is waiting for you to knock it down.
haven't you been just talking about yourself lately? how about you get hurt a little bit? don't trick me with nice words like that, i don't believe you, don't try and look so cool. no matter how many years it takes, don't give up
you're saying that you need me here. (want it a bit more, don't be so tough) a girl escapes to dream of remnants of love. (i'm always getting caught, i'm always running away) someday the key to my heart will break..
it'd be selfish of me to say i didn't want you to go. (i don't want you to go away, i won't get rid of you) love or friendship, i just want to know. (it's so vague, i just don't get it) the inside of my heart is waiting for you to embrace it. I don't need anything else.
I just want to believe in tomorrow Isn't what you're saying now diffferent from before? I'm showing just a little bit of my true self. it's been bothering me so much, the way you treated me like a thing. isn't what you're saying now different from before?
It's someone's fault that i'm running away and hiding every day I can't rely on anything i'm sorry, but goodbye for now
It'd be selfish of me to say i didn't want you to go. (i don't want you to go away, i won't get rid of you) love or friendship, i just want to know. (it's so vague, i just don't get it) the door to my heart is waiting for you to knock it down
haven't you been just talking about yourself lately? how about you get hurt a little bit? don't trick me with nice words like that, i don't believe you, don't try and look so cool.
I like the color blue..It represents the blue sky..the blue ocean and the blueness of my thoughts
MY MUSIC
The song that is playing now is "Spirit Carries On" by Dream Theater..When I was sick I've been playing this song over and over again.
Where did we come from?
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life? They say,
life is too short,
The here and the now
And you’re only given one shot
But could there be more,
Have I lived before,
Or could this be all that we’ve got?
If I die tomorrow
I’d be allright
Because I believe
That after we’re gone The spirit carries on
I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
I’m not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend
I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove What
I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try
If I die tomorrow I’d be allright
Because I believe That after we’re gone The spirit
carries on Move on,
be brave Don’t weep at my grave
Because I am no longer here
But please never let Your memory of me disappear
Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My questioning mind Has helped me to find
The meaning in my life again
Victoria’s real I finally feel
At peace with the girl in my dreams
And now that I’m here It’s perfectly clear
I found out what all of this means If I die tomorrow
I’d be allright Because I believe That after we’re
gone The spirit carries on
PREVIOUSLY PLAYED SONG
